How do you speak to someone when you run out of words? How do you look at someone when your eyes are about to explode into tears? How do you sleep when your mind speaks a thousand times reminding you what you don't want to remember? How do you fake a smile when your heart is aching? How do you breathe when it's so hard to breathe?

I think, one of the biggest struggles in life that we all have to face is changing. Sometimes, you are put in a situation you think you can never overcome. However, you never really get to know how much strength that you have in you until you experience it. I guess, one of the biggest aspects we struggle so much to adapt is probably because the fact that we are all scared. Scared of the changes. Scared of being outside our comfort zone. Scared of losing people we care about. Or worst, scared that we lose who we are as a person. We hold on too tightly on things that are familiar to us. We don't want to let go of them. But, life is supposed to be a roller coaster ride as what 'they' said it. We are all bound to change, all the time. We are bound to make changes or the situation force you to change. Things are not meant to be forever. One time, you're learning how to speak and other time, you have to deliver a speech in front of audience. There is also this other time that you meet the opposite gender for the first time in your life other than your dad or your mom. Then, it comes to the other time that you start dating one. It's crazy how life works. You NEVER get it. But, sometimes you need changes. You got to stop caring about what others think of you and worrying how to please them or how to keep them around because those who really care won't go anywhere. You got to stop blaming other people for all the wrongs that are happening in your life because sometimes things just don't go your way. You really got to stop complaining about the things you don't get and start appreciating everything that you have. Because, the truth is you never know when they are all going to be taken away from you. Appreciate it, treasure it, and live it up while you still can. Changes come with a lot of ups and downs. Sometimes you got to go through all the pain to achieve your happiness. Sometimes you have to get on your own feet to realize how strong you are. Sometimes you have to get lonely to start appreciating the things that you have taken for granted and live for the better. You got to take more chances. Maybe, you have to hurt someone or get hurt in the process but that is what life is all about. It is a bumpy road ahead. Nobody said it was going to be easy. Nobody said it was going to be all rainbows and colors. But, that is the funny thing about life. You just got to move forward. Who knows what's going to happen in the future? Maybe you'll meet that one person who got away? Or maybe marry your long lost love? Or create a bond with your enemy? Or be a succesful writer? You never know. Therefore, change is a good thing. Value it. It may even make you a better person. This is my family and we all changing :)

You put my heart at the edge of the window, thinking that it will be safe there. But then, you clumsily bump on it and there goes my heart forever. Broke into pieces just like a broken glass.

"Life hurts either way. But if you reminisce all the beauty there are in life. You'll realized that there are tons of reasons to smile and the pain you've felt was worth the lesson. They teach you to become the wisest and the happiest person alive" -Raihana Safira Wardani ❤️

My first few days as a Binusian have been amazing. I get to laugh a lot, smiled a lot and even get annoyed. WDAYS WERE SO MUCH FUN. We had group discussion. We did a community service at Car Free Day. Practice for our class performance. I was chosen to be the class president. My major got awarded as Best Performance 2014! Hani and I were also the Best Freshmen 2018! I am so grateful. I have accomplished so much these past few days. I have gained new amazing experience with friends and seniors. It's irreplaceable. The friendship that i created. New people i met and bond with they are amazing (the one's for my new amazing communication friends). The buddy coordinators who have been very helpful and friendly are the best (this one's for Nikholas Eduardo and Silvia Lucrecia). TWO DAYS FOR FOREVER. It's a treasure i'll keep in my heart forever :) THANK YOU.

I am blessed and so grateful. My life has been at its hardest point but never for second i stop being grateful of living. During this craziness of my time, I want to stop and just be thankful of having such an amazing father. I can't possibly asked for a better dad because mine is amazing. The most patient and the most hard-working man I've ever known in my entire life. I love you daddy. I am truly and deeply sorry for all the mistakes I made. Thank you for supporting me in everything I do. Thank you for never giving up on me and biggest thank you for working really really hard to keep our family together for years. I know what's happening right now has been hard on you, hard on us, but dad stay strong for me please? I need you. We need you. You are one amazing dad. Never forget that. And I won't stop making you proud. I love you to the moon and back. I love you to infinity and beyond.

As we grow older, we start to really realize that life is so complicated and that time does really matter. Scrape knees turns into heartbreaks, promises are being forgotten, love that was once the same turn into something different. People change all the time. I am scared. Of people, of friends, of family. Are we all going to forget one another? Are we all going to hurt eachother? Are we all going to argue? I guess it's been a tough year. I guess it was my fault. I guess i was blamed for one thing i never intended to happen. I guess i failed. When one of your parents told you that it was your fault that they are getting a divorce, what do you do? What do you say? How do you react? I am lost. I am hurt. But, i am still me.

It's hard to say "goodbye" to someone you dearly care and love. I can't believe you are leaving tomorrow and that I won't be able to see you off. Gaby, you are my treasure. Meeting you has brought so many beautiful things into my life. Wifey, you take cafe there for me, will you? From the moment I met you, I know, you are one in a million baby. You've been there for me through thick and thin and can't imagine not ever having you in my life. You are the most caring person I know and you are a beatiful woman. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. I can't wait to see us grow and meet again and talk about that moment we sat by your porch talking about how we'll laugh at our amazing memories together. Gaby, I love you so much dear. Until then, lets stay in contact. You will always be my bestfriend. You take care love :) if you ever feel homesick call me any time. Thank you for being such an amazing person that you are and I am deeply sorry if I ever make any mistakes. I believe that we'll see eachother. So baby, i'll see you soon? ❤️😘

Hello lovely people! Here's a sneak peek from our videoshoot we did on Sunday, 17 August 2014! We had a tiring yet very fun shoot! Thank you for those who keep on supporting, teaching and showing love to all of us. Without each and everyone of you, We won't be standing here strong <3 I love you girls and everyone in Krispy Family. YOU GUYS ROCK MY WORLD AND MAKE IT SO MUCH MORE ALIVE <3 Words won't begin to cover how thankful and grateful I am to share this moment. Dance has became a part of my soul. DREAMTEAM!! KRISPY FAMILY!! 

How can I move on when you're the first thing in my mind? How can I love someone else when you're the one I love dearly? How can I touch someone else when its your touch I want to feel? How can I kiss someone when all I remember is how your lips taste? How can I breathe when my heart is missing one piece and you're that missing piece? I love you. It's that simple yet complicated.